April 13
Hey Internets!
How have you been?
I have been friends with the lady that lives across the street for about 5 years now. She has the cutest kids. I heart them all.
She texted me the other day and said “I didn’t realize how much pink you wear. I was teaching the 3 year old the difference between boy/man and girl/woman. I said to him “so what is CC?” and he said “ummmm pink”
I am pink!
April 11
Today is mine and Superman’s 20th wedding anniversary.
20 years. I can’t hardly believe it has been that long.
At times, time seemed to stand still and other times, time flew by.
And in the day of so many divorces, I’m happy to say that we are still together.
April 9
Or a good working title would be There and Back Again by Chocolatechic
The summer of 2010 started out just lovely.
The boy got married.
His wife got pregnant.
The girl turned 18 and it was her Senior year. I was excited for all these things and what they meant, but a week after the girl turned 18, she packed some of her clothes, told me she quit school and left.
I had no idea where she was and for the next month I was beyond worried sick. I can not begin to tell you the hell I went through. I didn’t hear from her for some time, or even know where she was. A few weeks before Christmas she came home.
During this time I also didn’t hear from the boy. I knew that I would now be put on the back burner because he had a family that needed to come first, as it should be. I emailed him and texted him. He responded every once in awhile, but I did not expect to be ignored so completely.
Then in January, the girl went to spend a few weeks with my parents….and didn’t come home.
I was asked not to contact her in any way.
Family talked about me behind my back. Cruel things were written about me on Facebook and were laughed about.
I didn’t see/hear from the boy but about once a month for 5-10 minutes when he would drop off a car payment.
The ONLY thing that got me out of my bed in the morning was my job, and on the weekends I didn’t even bother. Why should I. The very people that I had given my heart and being to for the last 20 years walked away without a look back.
I just stopped.
I stopped sewing.
I stopped knitting.
I stopped sleeping.
I stopped blogging.
I stopped reading.
I stopped cooking and baking.
I put my camera away.
I didn’t eat chocolate for months and I stopped going to church.
All this time, Superman was my rock, but even he didn’t know the extent of the torment I was going through. No one did. He didn’t know that I cried myself to the point of being sick every morning after he left. He didn’t know I wasn’t sleeping, he wasn’t aware of just how low I had sunk. My therapist got me some anti-depressants and that kept me functioning.
When we didn’t hear from the chips on Mother’s day OR Father’s Day, Superman broke. I had seen him sad during this time and even upset on my behalf, but I had never seen him so angry. He decided that we were going to move and for the first time in my life I actually looked forward to moving. We considered Texas or North Dakota. There were 2 things that kept us here. 1. Because of the housing situation, our house wouldn’t have sold, and 2. we hoped that at some point we would be able to have some sort of a relationship with our granddaughter.
Finally around the end of Summer, I had a long talk with the boy. He told me some things that he was feeling that I had no idea about, and I shared some things he had no idea about, and I thought that our relationship would begin to mend.
At Christmas time, the girl came home for a month, and we had a good time together. I begged her to come home, but I didn’t think she would. In February she did. Things with her are improving every day.
Just last week I quit my job.
I have been putting a lot of energy into the girl and my relationship and I wasn’t seeing Superman hardly at all. Family is more important than money, so I quit.
Things are beginning to look up. I’m beginning to look up. My heart still has a long way to go before it will smile again, but I’m getting better every day.
March 26th
Hey there Internets!
It has been a long time.
I will explain in another blog. It isn’t pretty.
Aaaanyway….I’m here to write about something else.
Growing up as a preacher’s kid had its good points and bad…but mostly good.
Every church dad ever preached at, I had favorites. It doesn’t matter what any preacher tells you, he has favorites too.
When we moved to Doe Run, Missouri, there were 2 older gentlemen that were my favorites.
T.O. Hughes and Donny Hampton.
T.O. was great. We rode horses together, he let me cut and rake his hay and he made me wonderful lunches.
Donny Hampton was a quiet man. I never quite knew what to say to him, but I was drawn to him just the same. He gave great hugs, was kind and he twinkled.
Mom just called to let me know that the docs have called the family in for him. So very sad.
So much death here lately in my small sphere of people.
Make every day count peoples.
Every. day!
December 12
Hey there Internets!
Shakespeare said something like “a rose by any other name would still smell as sweet”.
This is also true for the lowly Pecan Sandy.
Or Mexican Wedding cookie
Or Russian Tea cake.
Or Snowball.
This past month , Oh Nuts contacted me and asked if I’d review some of their products.
Who wouldn’t jump at that chance.
So I perused their web site and chose Spiced Pecans and something else I will talk about tomorrow.
I had considered making a pecan pie with them, but then I went to the parents house and mom had had some Mexican Wedding Cookies Russinan Tea Cakes Pecan Sandies. And I couldn’t get it out of my head that they would be absolutely fabulous with spiced pecans in them.
And Internet I was right.
I didn’t think these cookies could get any better, but I was wrong.
Why don’t you go check out Oh Nuts…they have more than nuts there.
But you know what made them even sweeter?
Making them with my girl.
November 23
Today I am thankful for coffee, even though it is gross, it keeps me awake and that is a good thing.
November 21
Today I’m thankful for the chance to mentor a wonderful friend.
She has come so far.
November 19 & 20
19th~~
I’m thankful that Superman and I are in a position that we can help the boy when needed.
20th~~
I’m thankful that Superman, even though he is afraid of heights and doesn’t like to do work on the house, was able to plastic the side of the back porch and rehang some broken metal on the house.
November 18
Today I am thankful for Facebook.
It not only keeps me entertained, but I get to connect with people all over the world.
Now for a nosy question….
What is the weirdest thing you have in your purse right now?
For me???
I have a screw driver and a dirty spoon.
November 16
Yesterday I was thankful for a quiet ride to work…..read~~the exhaust system on Chang is fixed! YAY!
Today I am thankful for technology.
November 14
Hey Internets.
I haven’t been on almost all weekend.
So…Saturday I was thankful for the whole sleeping in thing.
Sunday I was thankful for Superman’s kind heart that had him beside the road changing a tire for a little old couple.
Today I’m thankful for a friend taking me to work so that my exhaust system can be fixed.
November 11
Today is Veterans Day.
Today I’m thankful for all those who have fought/are fighting/and will be fighting for freedom.
Not only for myself, but my children, my grandchildren, etc.
And a big shout out to my Superman.
PS. Subway is giving away free 6″ subs to veterans today.
November 10
Today I am thankful for my friend Cheryl.
She makes me laugh, she listens, and she loves me….for who I am.
November 8
Today I am thankful for the privilege to vote.
I am thankful for a country that is still mostly free.
November 7
Today I am thankful for the Internet.
Without it, I would not have met so many wonderful people.
I love you guys!
November 6
Today I’m thankful for the extra delicious hour of sleep I got last night.
November 5
Today I am thankful for Superman.
He is willing to go shopping with me every week.
I really enjoy the time we spend together.
November 4
Today I am thankful for my DVR.
I love being able to fast forward through all the stupid commercials, and to be able to watch my shows when I want.
